２００９年3月1日 21:59     Sunday

I guess I still find time to journal now! Anyway regarding the weird dream. A house means something good (can’t recall) but I remember it was something good I could connect to coming out of the closet. I’m just not sure about the thing with Pokémon trying to break in…

[The rest of this entry is about stuff like Pokémon, Ugly Betty, more talk about my genes… you get the point…]

２００９年3月3日            22:36         Tuesday

God what a tiring day! Two whole hours of math – practice before the test (I barely understand anything :O) plus two hours and fifteen minutes of Japanese.

So I talked to H and told her everything and now it’s all good and I know I hurt her a little but it does bother her and I asked her not to make fun of me anymore.

I also talked to dad about contact lenses and it’s not that dangerous like mom said (and weirdly the doctor too) and it’s okay to do. But mom won’t discuss it until the summer ._. but I do want to do it…

N and I were just talking and she said I was changing (duh!). That I’m like changing my style (tight jeans :3) and hair and now I want contacts and she’s really annoying. First of all she’s supposed to understand and now everyone is developing their personal style, but the annoying thing is that she has a lot of stigmas and prejudice and mostly toward boys which includes: they all must have cropped hair, not to care about how they dress and look. And it’s driving me crazy she is nagging me about the hair and [this goes on…]

２００９年3月4日            22:31   Wednesday

I have no time to breathe.

I need to prepare stuff for gamad megumad [the Purim version of Secret Santa], make a mishloach manot, finish the costume thing (update: I bought a white shirt and pants for a Smurf costume <3 and then found a shirt at home with a picture of that Smurf with the glasses! So I decided to take it. Need to buy a hat + shoes), get ready for a math test I know nothing about, do a ton of homework for English class tomorrow, plus there’s an excursion to the Technoda from neuroscience class (this year it’s astrophysics), watch a ton of TV, play the Wii, start (go back to) being on the computer because today the internet got fixed, maybe watch anime (today was the first time in 4 months!), read a book now for English tomorrow and make progress with the million others, of course do homework, make time for thinking and reflecting on things, and then journal, and of course eat, shower and sleep as much as possible (major sleep signs) and then mom screams at me to come help every minute!! And I haven’t checked my horoscope in two weeks!!

Okay so basically it’s not an easy time but luckily there’s about to be a long Passover vacation! It comes just in time (or I will collapse before that. I think my freshly-vaccinated arm from today will be affected by this stress and I’ll be sick).

And omg B is moving soon! And maybe we’ll be alone! I need to think about it again. <,<

Even though I prefer to tell only H first more than anyone I just feel that and I also thought about it. But it’s hopeless. No way if we hang out we’ll be alone especially now that there’s another English speakers project and me and her are in a group of 5.

But today I saw the hot boy who I think is from high school a few times for a second 😀 and to organise everything I need to do:

• Get ready for math exam on Friday and maintain good grades. (Will be hard with geometry)
• Find a hat and white shoes for the Smurf costume.
• Check my horoscope! (I wonder what was that thing about a new love in March :3)

２００９年3月5日            22:45        Thursday

Oh what a day. I’m nervous and exhausted.

I came home only at three, did homework for private English class and started getting ready for math – till 22:00. I haven’t even gone over the geometry, I barely remember anything, and it’s never happened to me! (too much TV + Wii ._.)

I’m really really nervous and scared because I know I won’t do well tomorrow (and I haven’t done homework for other classes). Mom will wake me up early to study as much as possible but I’m pretty sure it will go wrong and we’ll oversleep. It will just be a disaster tomorrow I can already see the tears.

The most important task for now:

Tissue. I’m gonna need lots of it. I’m gonna fail tomorrow.