Gone clubbing
For the very first time
Danced my ass off
Opened the cork
Bodies bumping
Sweat and musk
Strangers all around me
Shots of alcohol

I want to say that it’s freeing
Knowing I’m making a fool of myself, yet stopping not
Doesn’t matter what they think
I lose myself in the crowd
Feel the heat on my bones

Music blaring
Ears ringing, neck hot
Couples sucking off each other’s faces
Like oxygen tanks in a dark void
I close my eyes to escape the loneliness
It truly feels like I’m in another world
Not on Earth, where things are complicated
But on a planet with nothing but music and a throng
I let the crowd push me
I don’t care where my feet land on the floor
All I want is to keep dancing
Move my body all night long

Finally, I smile
Loneliness makes way for pure joy
I realize why people go clubbing
Such a sweet escape, a rush, a roar
Stomach sore from hip movements
Throat hurt from screaming lyrics I happen to know
Yet nothing matters in this moment
As I jump to the beat of the song

With my eyes shut, my grin feels infectious
I’ve only felt this once, atop a mountain, before a violent fall
I look drunk, I’m told, high as a kite
“Drugs?”
“Not at all”
It’s the rush of life that makes me chortle
I can’t believe I’m enjoying this
I used to lie to skip parties and stay home
Now I burst out laughing
And imagine myself from above

What an out of body experience
I picture myself from another perspective
And behold a different person
I would approach me, dance with me, grab my hand
It happened last week and led to magic
Tonight, I am all alone

So I pluck up the courage and hit on strangers
After a sentence or two, they’re gone
Three strikes and I surrender
Leave the club forlorn

I cross the bustling streets of ni-chome
The happiest neighborhood I’ve known
Everyone’s out making conversation
While I mope back to my temporary home
It unfolds like a scene from a movie
Is this real life? Can it really feel this high and low?
The streets grow empty
And so does my heart, after feeling on top of the world